Calling all bitches

M- I miss you so much bestie. Need your retard in my life right now.
ILLs- I need you tender loving care small friend.
RACHY- Babykins, avatar salute to you!
RACHL- pork hunk, come and give me a tiny hug.
EUNs- bitch girl, you get me high.
CHRIS- my white fair friend. Stop hanky panky with shen.
MEL- we need some M&S time soon. You need to update me on gossips;)
J- I miss you, you annoying retard.

Sometime to come

It's hard to think that someday you know it will all end and you know that when that day ends, you'll end up in tears and sorrow. But what if it doesn't. What if it last longer than you except. Making it a wonderful and memoriable experience. You got through all your ups and downs and surviving every single one of those moments. You know you did. You achieve what others thought you would fail. You did it. And at that moment, you know that it was all worth taking a chance for.

Quick

The week is almost over before I could take the time to enjoy it and appreciate it. Well, I had the bestest week. It started from the week before. Had EUN's and MEL's confirmation then J sent me home. Monday just got better cause mrs K didn't come. Got home late cause had practical. Tuesday, mrs K didn't come again and we had thanks giving mass in the morning. 5periods of Malay. Haha, I love my cikgu!! Annaliza the best! Wednesday I found out mrs K won't be coming for the whole week. She had an operation. Hope you're okay mrs K! 4/8 truly miss you. Had health check up during pe. Oh and pe was after recess. Haha. Then after school, studied with J. Sent me home again after that. Thursday was J's birthday! Had a surprise party for her after that. Got to spend time with J and her family. Had the funniest time. Cake on faces and kiddy palace after that. J sent me home after that. Friday had Malay intensive. Tiring! That's about it. I'm too lazy to get into details.

Please

I miss you so much, no words can decribe it. To tell you what I feel seems the hardest thing for me to do. I don't want to hurt you by making you wait but yet I feel it is hurting you. I guess I've been thinking of how I feel and never gave a thought about how you feel. I'm trying to understand. Truly I am. I hope I have everything I need to say to you by tomorrow. Just wait one more day.

.....

And now God has given me a sign and I'm speechless. I think of what I going to do and I may not do what I truly want to but it might be for the best. But I'm giving it more thought because I don't want to reject after I've made my decision. I need you to be patient with me. I haven't fully thought thinks out yet.

A break

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MALAY! ALL COME CELEBRATE MY JOY! HURRAY!!!! I'M ALSO DONE GEOG AND PHYSICS!!! I'm so happy now that I give myself a break. Haha, I feel so happy now. My sister and I are fighting again. When i say fight, I mean like for fun. Her annoying big mouth can't shut up! I kicked her with my foot. BITCH! I have a class committee photoshoot at 245pm tomorrow. Plus POA tuition at 4pm and Amaths tuition at 730pm. Whoopie. I'm utterly dragging tomorrow. Shan said she needs to tell me something. Oh wells, whether it's good or bad, I'm still worried of what I will find out.

Lonely

I'm home now. Yup, that's about it.

Nutrients.

Mummy just came home and fed me food. Finally, I'm filled with nutrientsfor my body and energy to do Malay. Maybe I'm just really dragging to do my Malay but I'm half way there to fill half a page. Yay me. I've got physics and geography homework too. Will do it tonight, I hope. This week I have no Malay intensive so maybe I'll be visiting Shaunna. I didn't mean to ditch her today. I didn't really ditch, more like I was really busy and I didn't know she came to toa payoh and waited three hours for me. I'm really sorry Shaunna! Gotta go back to my Malay now.

Again, I'm lost. God, give me a sign.

Back to school all sulky and depressed

Today was the worst day of the week. I don't have the bloody mood to do anything and everything is so messed up. The whole day, my mood swings were killing me. ILLS cheered me up as usually and Michelle seriously needs her own Fart bag to fill up her horrendous gas. Michelle and I did the NECIP living space after school today. It was hilarious. I love you smelly gas!!! Went home after that and there was a fight in the train. That was my entertainment on my journey home. I should start on Malay homework soon but I'm too dumb to do it. Which totally stresses me out that I can't do it. I feel so emotionally unstable with my studies now. If I can't do it, I'll get so worked out and depressed. Erh! I should go for counselling soon.

I'm lost. Utterly, extremely, tremendously lost.

Monday off

Watched Avatar 3D today. AMAZING! The lead is called Jakesully. Haha, or that is what the natives call him. They connect with their hair! It was funny but overall the movie was great. Met up with M, RACH Y., EUN, CHRIS, ANNE and S! Hey! I just found out AVATAR won the award for some best movie thing. Haha! Anyways, met them at mos burger city hall and then head to heeren orchard. Headed home after that feeling utterly shity! Hell hole much!

Clash

I just found out today that whenever my sister travels, she gets proposed by the people there. And inside of a diamond ring, this is what she was offered... In Vietnam, she was offered cows. In India, she was offered camels. And Malaysia or Indonesia, she was offered half a padilla field. Weird!!! I know.

I'm pissed off that you are so close to other people but not me. How you could tell other people things that matter and not a single to me. How you could talk to them in person but you're ever so shy with me. How you could say a million words to them but not me. Them but never me...

Fighting against reality

I want to call you and tell you I miss you.
I want to hug you when I see you.
I want to be able to tell you that I love you.

Recap

I've been thinking of you night and day.


So, I've been getting wake up calls on most of the days by Shaunna. It's so sweet for her to stay up or wake up early just to wake me up. I love her so much and I just wanna say thanks. I know it's not enough but thanks anyways. Have to meet up with her soon. Cca orientation is this saturday. Can't wait to spend the day with Finaz! My last year in drama with her. I'm going to miss her so much. It seems like i haven't talk to Mel in a long time. I miss her too. Been talking to Jake these pass few days. Stupid dope. Haha, funny as ever. School's been great. I miss my daily dosage of bullying from RACHAEL ASHLEY LYE. She didn't come today. I love all my bitches so much.

I remember.

I just read the sweetest thing ever and the fact that you wrote it just makes me nuts. It made me realized how much I've missed you and how we used to be. It reminded me of the memories of you and it made me smile. I used to try too hard and then when I stopped trying, we lost contact. I guess I've been longing for something I will never get. Friendship.

New year message

Hey Phua, we have grown closer this year. Next year even closer, okay? Thanks for all the advice you've given me and all the encouragement too. You are such a retard and you seriously need to wash your jeans;) Love you!

Chris, you are always in your own little world. haha, it's nice to have gotten the chance to know you this year. We will be closer friends next year, okay? Thanks for everything. Love you!

Eunice bitch! Hey girl, had a great year with you last year and loads of memories to kept. Thanks for all the wonderful, hilarious moments. You have been a great friend and im sure we will be better friends this year. Thank you!! Love you bitch!

Rachael Ashley Lye, my puppy. You are such an hyper and cheerful hunk! you always know how to make someone smile and at the same time back away from your roughness. Thank you for all. Love you!

To Rachelkins, thanks for a great year babe! We have grown closer last year and another year ahead of us. Loads of memories to treasure with you dear. stay strong always, start a new;) Thank you for everything. Love you Rach!

To ika, thanks for always being there for me when i needed you. Even though last year we havent spend so much time together, we still had fun whenever we met. This year we might not get the opportunity again because im having Os but once it's done we can PARTY! Thanks for all the great memories. Love you cousin and stay strong dealing with work!

To my bitch, you have always been the funniest friend i had to deal with. You could cheer me up with whatever you do. Even though we had our downs, i know it was to bring us closer together. You are one of my most treasured friend and we will always have our ups and downs but we will never part. Love you always!

Michelle baby! I thank you for being my bestest friend. Thanks for all the support, encouragement and memories. You have been with me through my ups and downs. Last year we have come closer together and this we will grow closer than ever. You will always be treasured. Love you forever M!