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F4 interview

its just a dream

I was at the back stage where the top four idol contestants were preparing themselves before the performance. My sister was busy working so F_____ offered to take me around for the day. He brought me to each of the four finalist rooms and i watched them get ready before we headed to the cafe and he got me ice milo. Some how he knew it was my favourite. And we chat a lot! Then he ask if he could take me out again so i agreed and he just smiled. Now im not saying i like him because he is so very malay but when he smiled at me my heart kinda sunk. He is cute but it was just a dream right. So anyways, we then headed back to the rooms and watched them do last minute preparations. He was holding a camera and he took loads of pictures. Then he pulled me into this huge toilet that was so beautifully designed and he took a picture of us. He wanted to take a picture of me but i was like no and i covered the lens. Then he suddenly pulled me in and kissed me. It was a long kiss. I was so surprised that i just frozed. Then when he was done, he just looked at me and smiled and i just smiled back. It was so weird but it felt nice. Then he took us to our seats for the performance and he put his arms around me like i was his. I kinda wanted to push his arms away but it felt comfortable. I dont like F_____. I rather F_____ in my dream but anyways, then before i left he kissed my cheek and said it was a great night.

Pretty Boys

H in the middle

Finals

Last night was the greatest night in my whole idol nights I've been to. Anyways, I the finals were great! It started off with Sylvia and Sezairi singing and just before they ended the song, Sezairi touch Sylvia's face so sweetly!! I screamed so badly.. Then they both sang, taking turns and such. Their voices were amazing. Then during the hour break, Tabitha, Charles, Faizal and Hady sang for the whole stadium. Fantastic! During results show, The Pretty Boys performed. My sister told me all about it the day before. Haha, they were such a boy band. Haha, I had a good giggle. The performances kept getting better and better! Then Chanice sang. It wasn't the first time I heard her sing but it was the first time hearing her live. It was a brilliant performance! Sezairi won idol season 3. Three talented Malay boys in a row. Although I really wanted Sylvia to win. I think she deserved it but then again, he is talented too. After the performance, my sister brought my mom, Lynn and me to back stage. Meet Hady and the way he looked at my sister was like she was the only one in the room. Awww, then before we left, he went bye norfa and gave her a flying kiss!!! Yes a flying kiss!!! I was like OMG OMG OMG!!! He's so cheeky! And he did in front of my mom some more! My mom didn't really care so... But I went AAAHHHH..... You know I so don't mind being the sister-in-law of the second Singapore idol plus the first Asian idol... Oh wells, let's see if he can charm my sister's heart. Got home feeling super happy this morning! I smiled my myself to sleep.

Weekend mania

I'm still searching for a planner for next year. And yesterday was gladdening. I spent the day with my mom, sis, aunt and chubby adorable cousins. Girl, 10 and twin boys, 4. We headed to City Plaza for Arnold and then to Marina Square and Suntec. I've almost done with my christmas shopping which is ridiculous because Christmas is over but our Christmas / New year party / sleepover is this Thursday night. So yeah.. Later we went to the Changi beach and we walked along the beach and it's seriously messed up. There were litter EVERYWHERE! And the water was gross!!! It's not blue, not even clear but it was shity brown and the sand were dyed black. We need to clean that place. Then we went to eat dinner after fetching my uncle. I love my family!

Idol finals tomorrow y'all! It's going to be rocking awesome!!! Farhan, Faizal, Joakim and Paul are going to be performing too!! Can't wait to watch it. And my sister is leaving for North India on Monday. She just got back last week and she's leaving on Monday. That bitch! School starts next next Monday. That's fast..

Blessed with bitches

Have I ever mentioned how I love my wonderful friends. Eventhough I might not have that many friends, I still have the most wonderful friends. M, ILLS, MEL, RACH Y., RACH L., EUN, S, CHRIS, EUG, ANNE, I'm blessed with a wonderful bunch of retards who can't ever be replace. I love you guys so much!

Non-stop, busy as a bee

I think M is angry at me. I dropped out from watching Avatar with her last minute. Sorry M!!! I owe you one! Have fun with Anne. Anyways, I met M today at 12pm then had lunch with M RACH Y. and RACH L. I miss them so so so much! Anyways, we headed to Cotton On Novena! RACH L. decides not to join us. Blah blah blah RACH L. CHRIS joined us and had a blast there. Later M and I headed to Tampines and then Simei to meet up with our buyers. Bugis was productive. M got most of her Christmas shopping and then we went to Penin to get a special someone a gift. You better be thankful we went all the way to that scary place. Then we went to Plaza Singapura. Got wrappers and such. Headed home after that. Reached home at 8pm y'all. What a long, tiring day.

impossible or possible?

He's good looking, charming, thoughtful, funny and always a gentleman. And even though he is easily-jealous, overly-protective, stubborn and headstrong, he listen when you talk and he is there to give a shoulder to cry on. Whenever he's close, you cant stop yourself from blushing. He makes you feel as if you're the only one that he is interested in. You're his bestfriend and he understands you.

that was how we were,

ILLS! ENJOY!

Had the most wonderful time yesterday with M ILLS EUG and MEL. Finally we all had the chance to spend time together. I miss them all so much. We looked around at the shops at City Hall before heading to Sakae Sushi. ILLS,omg. She was seriously messy. She dropped her whole sushi piece into the dish of soy sauce and it all started to fall apart. We all did some sharing and catch up on things. Thanks to MEL's great idea of a game, "I Had Never" game, we ended eating wasabi and this rotten bean as a dare. FUCK! it was the most digusting thing that has even been through my digestive system. I think when M ordered it, the chef was probably cursing that he has to made such a horrifying dish. After our feast, we went to look at the rest of the shops at City Hall.

invisible.....

i've been around but you just dont seem to notice me.
you talk,but not a single word to me.
am i visible in your eyes?
do i not posses the qualities you desire?
i've been longing for your attention.
the sight of you makes me weak.
a crush is just a crush.
and a crush can be forgotten.
but if you cant be forgotten,does that make you more than a crush?

the goddess is back

im back since 1am sunday morning and i never really had the mood or chance to blog till now. anyways, been away for a week and i've obviously missed out on a lot. i found out a lot of news things which kinda got me worked up. i need a heart to heart chat with M. calling M!!!! there ae things i wished i didnt know.

moving on.. my dad just gave me my bonus money for the year and yay yay. it's goood. its not that much but it's way way way better than nothing. i just bought two dresses from M at 22bucks. she's kinda mad that i bargain till 22. thanks M, its because you love too much to decline;) i love my bitch. anyways, i'm going to meet ILLS M and MEL tomorrow. hope EUG joins but she hasnt confirm. we're going to shop around city hall area and maybe head down to town or something. havent figured out what to wear.

i've missed ILLS M MEL RACH RACH EUN EUG CHRIS S and SHAUNNA. i havent seen them in a very long time. please meet up soon. im begging you guys.

M

Calling michelle poon mei yi. I know you're somewhere out there in the middle of the sea. come back soon babe! i miss you!!!

Love Rule 2#

Love Rule 2# :

The one you dont want to call you will always call, and the one you're dying to have call you wont. So maybe the secret to love is not really liking the person you want to love you.

slow mode

I FOUND OUT SEASON TWO OF 90210 IS OUT AND MY BLOODY LAPTOP TAKES FOREVER TO LOAD AND ITS FREAKING ANNOYING! YOU CANT LET ME FOUND OUT THERE ARE NEW SEASONS WITHOUT ALLOWING ME TO WATCH IT. BLOODY HELL!

self absorbed

Selfish. Obsessive. Easily-jealous. Non-stop talker. Irritating. Lazy. Easily-scared. Sensitive. Emotional. Dependent. Demanding. Shy. Sincere. Sense of humour. Thoughtful. Good natured. Friendly. Forgiving. Nice. Helpful??? Kind??? Likable???

im so bored at home and i have no one to talk to right now. M is leaving tomorrow for her fishing trip and well, i dont know who to hang out with. ILLS might be busy and MEL might have tramp and such. i dont know... i just havent been in a good mood these few days. anyways,going out with YANA on tueesday. we're going to watch a movie. not sure which but i was hoping we can watch a comedy or cartoon. i need a good laugh. i realise i've been so into me lately, which is really selfish of me. now i feel mean. ah me again! shuddup shaz. i need to get my issues sort out.

the last song

Disney

Disney makes you imagine and wonder. It allows you believe and always listen to your heart. Fairytales, Romance, Wonders, Dreams, Imagination, Excitemant, Adventure, Experience, these words are what Disney brings and leave you astonied.

xoxoxo

I havent seen EUNICE,RACH L,RACH Y,SP,ANNE and CHRIS in almost a week now or more. I miss them so much. I just Talked to RACH Y yesterday and she is in confirmation camp now. SP is probably having fun at HK. EUNICE is like traveling around Italy, Spain or Germany. I dont know but i bet she's having fun. I miss all my bitches. I was suppose to go out with ILLS and M today and like shop around Bugis but i was dealing with my wheezing chest. Anyways,hope to see them next week before i leave. Man,ill be gone for a week,wait,more... I'll try to blog while im away. Which reminds me,i need to repaint my nails before i leave and also to start planning and packing what to wear and bring. i better go get pads and disposable undies;) Today pass by so quickly. i woke up around two and now it's like already 6plusplus. M told me she wants to get a lot of stuff at Bugis so we'll have to go next week with ILLS to. I miss that loser! My little DM!

spellbind

im falling in love with justin bieber. all the girls are and why wouldnt they be. he is just the cutest, most talented boy i've ever seen. and the plus thing is he is only fifteen. that shows how musically talented he is. he is lucky too. to be sucessful by doing the thing he is talented in and i bet he is enjoying it too. oh how i wish i could me him. i wonder if he is shorter than me. that would be like a minus point but i will love him anyways. i stil cant believe he is only fifteen.

Obsession

1. An irrational motive for performing trivial or repetitive actions, even against your will.
2. An unhealthy and compulsive preoccupation with something or someone.

CROCUS,flower of the day

Youth Gladness; Abuse Me Not

Crocuses have been cultivated for centuries and were even grown in the Sultan's garden in what was once Constantinople. Acording to lore, Crocus is the name of a Greek youth who captured the eye of a nymph named Smilax. He rejected Smilax so Aphrodite, the goddess of love, changed him into a crocus and turned Smilax into a bindweed (offering a not-so-subtle warning). Youthful galdness is emitted from the marvelous blooms of spring, but the second meaning refers to the autumn crocus, a flower that usually blooms in the fall. These blossoms send a message that one year's constancy might not turn into two.

New Moon

What a day. I slept at 5am this morning and i woke up at 12pm. Anyways,got dress and have a mini breakfast/lunch with my mother. Meet M and EUG at 2plusplus and slowly made our way to suntec Eng Wah cinema. MEL said she'll join us later so yup. We got the tickets first,bought a drink,walked around the arcade(weird....i know!) and went into this Christian shop. I found out they had a Manga based on Christianity. Did i spelt that right? Anywoo, MEL arrived not long after and we all camwhored like crazy. Well they did,i was like mostly wheezing like a nerd. NEW MOON WAS GREAT! AT LEAST ITS BETTER THAN TWILIGHT I GUESS. JACOB HAS A HOT BODY... OOO LA LA... BELLA SEEMS PRETTIER IN THIS MOVIE TOO. WE LAUGHTED LIKE CRAZY FOR ALL THE WRONG REASONS AND AT THE WRONG TIME TOO. MOST OF THE TIME,ONLY THE FOUR OF US LAUGHED. REALLY LOUDLY... Im probably going to watch this movie again next week with my cousins this time. Suppose to go out with ILLS and M tomorrow but my body needs rest. I can say im getting better which is great! Thank you God!

4am

Im blogging at 4am in the morning. Im still watching BOF and im trying to keep myself busy. Im not tired guys... Thats going to be a problem. M told me that sleeping less than 5hours might cause heart attck which is so bad. TskTsk. I'll be watching New Moon today at 4pm. I'll be meeting M,EUG and MEL today later at 2pm. Cant wait to see them! MEL!!! I miss you girl! And we need to go out on out M&S outing soon. Signing off now.

JB

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach won't stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
And we gon' keep keep climbing to the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep, you know that it humbles me
You're by my side, them troubles them not trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatever you want shawty I'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything I need
And I'ma tell her one time
Give you everything you need down to my last dime

She makes me happy
I know where I'll be
Right by your side
'Cause she is the one

And girl you're my one love, my one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

And I'ma be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl
Always making time for you
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)
I'ma tell you one time
(Girl, I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
Me plus you, I'ma tell you one time
One time, one time

RED CARNATION

Bravery; Love and Friendship; Vanity and Pride

This colection of floral meanings for the fragrant carnation is said to have begun with King Louis IX. The King brought the carnation back to France where he used the sap to treat victims of the Plague. Aristocrats wore a carnation in their buttonhole on the way to the guillotine, so bravery is indeed one of the floral messages. At one time rare and valuable, vanity and love is implied in the red color and how it remains to the end. The Red Carnation became a symbol for Mother's Day in 1907.

told you so

results show now. who's going out? let's find out. two girls save so one of the boys is going out. CHARLES....... hmmmmmm....... SEZAIRI...... hmmmmmm...... sezairi is thinking of what song to sing next week. wow. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH charles went out. heeee. well my guess for top 4 were sezairi,tabitha,slyvia,mae. 3 out of 4 are in top three baby!

ps:charles is promoting his beatbox classes and cafe.

STOCK,flower of the day.

The fragrant stock, sometimes called the gillyflower (refering to a dialect from of "July Flower"), is a four-petalled beauty with an intense fragrance that is espeacially noticeable at dusk and later in the evening. its history goes back to Greek philosophers, who suggusted using stock mixed with roses to create a bouquet fit for the gods. Gardeners of the middle ages grew stock in large amounts. To send stock in a floral missal is to offer a wish for a happy life or acknowledgement of the recipients lasting beauty.

LR1#

LOVE RULE 1#:

Love controls your mind and makes you think constantly about the one you love.

my feedback on SINGAPORE IDOL

Tabitha.Im sorry to say but i have to just say this. What is up with Tabitha's back up dancers? And i support Tabitha but she seems to be dressing more skimpier every week. Ill support her singing all the way though!
Sezairi is getting way over his head. i think he thinks he is really good huh. What's with his face? He is kinda gay right now. hahaha i cant help laughing.Ken is sooo right. Sezairi is so slacking. I dont see effort dude.
Slyvia is crying now. Yeah wow im speecless. I love her voice!!!!! I think slyvia is the best so far,wait best tonight. I have no hope for charles. Okay she screeched at the last part..... Dick is so unfair! You cant compare her with Tabitha.
Charles.hahahahah Charles is so funny! His song is hilarious! I cant take it. He is spoiling Chris Brown's work. He cant dance at all. He keeps swinging his arm but its a FAILED! Boooo Charles! Boooooooooooooo. YOU'RE OUT!
Tabitha again. Her boobs are bursting out. But overall, LOVE THE OUTFIT;) LOVE THE SONG! Dick is unfair! GO TABITHA!
Sezairi is trying. Thats good. i like his song choice. Our school dancers can dance way better than the backup dancers on idol.
Slyvia is good. She redeemed herself!!!!! yay! OMG!!!! FINALLY TWO!!!! Ken said final two!
Charles oh charles.... yes he does have two left feet. He has funny face expressions! whereneyneyney...... Hahaha Dick miss Duanne. I miss Duanne! Gurmit didnt let Charles finish talking.

I miss DUANNE,FAIZAL,MALAQUE,MAE,FARHAN,NURUL,FATHIN,SLYTRA,JUSTIN!

im falling in love with JUSTIN BIEBER..... OMG he is so cute.

I love him in the video 'One Time'. He's 15! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

SO CUTE! Anyone out there wants to get e his album for christmas,feel free too. I will love you so much if you do get me his album.

JUSTIN BIEBER

im so falling in love with him

Love

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand it's own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no records of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Pissed Off

Im so angry! Maybe cause im having my monthly menses and you know pms... But still im just so angry. Like i wanted to borrow a movie from the Cinenow machine and when i type in the passcode number they said invalid...wrong number..... BULLSHIT! So i guess i must have got the number wrong when my sister told me. Totally spoil my mood of watching a movie. Maybe im also angry because im sick and whenever i walk to fast or use up too much energy,it gets so hard for me to breathe and i start wheezing. Really its horrible and im so tired. Im tired of blowing my nose every 5mins,i hate coughing so loudly but it cant be soften,i hate the feeling as if im lacking oxygen and lastly,i hate menses! A girl has to go through way more pain then a guy.

Im watching BOF now and it must have been my millionth tie watching it but its the only thing that i can watch now. Which totally stinks. I already know whats going to hapened in the show. Anyways, i asked my cousins to watch New Moon with me and i really want to watch it this week but they say next week. I cant wait that long people! Its New Moon we are talking about.... So i guess ill be watching it with M,EUG and MEL tomorrow. Not sure if ILLS is coming. Then ill watch it again with my cousins. Sorry guys,i so cant wait that long.

I had a talk with M last night and i told her i feel like im missing out on something. Its holidays now and all my bitches out there seem to have that special someone. Except M but she wants to be free. SOOO yeah,its not like a need someone badly but i just thought it could be fun. you know? The guys from BOF are good-looking... I can totally melt right now. Im bored..... I need to get out of the house. Just feel like walking on the beach and just read my book. Which reminds me,i've started on a new book and ill tell you guys all about it when im done.

I woke up today at 11.11am and M was still sleeping. I decided to blogged and go online. Talked to ILLS. Very INTERESTING talk... Then M woke up saying "you blogging?". Yup sure M sure... Basically all we did today was sit around my room watching shows online and on tv.

Boys Over Flowers

Ji Hoo: I stop because you are my friend. i gave her up because she was your girl. not until the very end.

(Jun Pyo punches Ji Hoo)

Jandi: stop it.

Jun Pyo: (silence)

Jandi: why are you here?

Jun Pyo: (silence)

Jandi: do you have something to say?

Jun Pyo: (silence)

Jandi: fine,then. im leaving.

(Jandi and Ji Hoo leaves. Jun Pyo falls to the ground,crying)

It's not always a happy ending

I've finished with the second story book I borrowed the other day. This one is called 'The Wrong Boy'. It's aboutthis posh girl named Grace Foster-Bryce. She used to lived in a huge house like really huge with a swimming pool, tennis court and there is about more than 7 rooms in the house. One day her dad was sent to jail for fraud and she now lives in an area where there are smokers, street people, basically they are un-posh liked. She then falls in love with this boy,Jay Jones, who lives a life different then she does. They loved each other no matter how different their lives were. Not long after, Grace has to move back to her posh life with her grandmother. Grace and Jay then had to break apart unwillingly. The end. What an ending right? This shows that not all stories have an happy ending.

You caught my attention

I saw the cutest/hotest guy today. I don't even think he noticed me but what the heck. Who cares. He is still hot! And he is like tall !!! :)

Wasabi and Books

Sushi buffet with M.
An hours chat with M and Illya at city link.
Library for books.
M staying over for the night.